I know that there are some children who are better off outside of their birth homes. All of us know that. But, we also know that government can sometimes talk a mother out of her kids...even convince her that there is no other option...Or, that it is her only chance of ever seeing the child again because they will MAKE that happen if the mother does not cooperate. I don't know the mother in the following missive. But many know how she feels:I gave my children to the state willingly to in return receive a 15 minute "visit" behind a two way mirror. Basically I got to LOOK at them.
For almost 3 years I missed them. Until desperation set it.
The only other place I have witnessed such desperation..was at my best friends funeral when I was 10 years old. He was 9. At the grave site his mother sobbed and attempted to jump into the grave as they lowered him into the ground. She was screaming "I just want to see him one more time, I will do anything!!!". This was unfortunately the exact same emotion I felt, and lived.
But instead of one. It was all of my children. I let them go away forever. Never to be seen again. (sound similar to death?)
Just to see them all- one more time.
Now this is what the state has done to me. I lost my soul, my mind, my will to live and love. I don't know who I am anymore after the horror I have been through.
I stood just inches from my children...they were just out of my reach. They didn't even know I was there. That was it. That was goodbye.
I hope you post this Pam. Let the world know what they have done to me. Please.